how does it feel when you get 50+ calls a day from the same person and the message broadcasted across your ear just becomes repetitive?

how does it feel when you get calls in the middle of the night and sometimes even come knocking at your door?

how does it feel when you don't know whether u made the right choice and the sense of guilt just stays in there because the thought just comes back every now and then?

how does it feel when you're stuck in-between 2 person and sandwiched whenever they quarrel?

how does it feel when you sometimes wonder if you're in the right or wrong?
how does it feel when the person just doesnt listen & try to understand you?
how does it feel when you cant solve the problem no matter how hard u try?
how does it feel when this WHOLE THING has lasted for...half a year?

WOULD YOU JUST STOP DWELLING ON THE PAST!?

been trying to put my strong front and smile as often as possible..
just realised i've been really quiet these days..
is there really a change in me? how did u notice that? amazed..
oh well..what should i do? get over it? easier said than done..

i just cant seem to find someone whom i feel comfortable pouring all my thoughts & troubles to....

how did i end up in such plight?

even in the chain of events that happened since sec school.
I realised that...
just when you thought you foresee a pleasant/great/interesting
future ahead of u, life could just take a quick change on you and
leave u stranded. No escaping, only facing it.

everytime my temper got the hold of me, i just #(@*#% whatever my thought tells me. after i calm down, i'd look back with guilt on whatever i said.
GOSH, I NEED TO CONTROL IT.